30 days of motherhood: April 26th, 2013

Day three of my two year old being sick and now the baby is vomiting and has diarrhoea with a fever. The baby is so clingy, so I can’t get much done around the house and of coarse the husband is complaining. I put the baby down and he starts to fuss then cries. When the kids get sick all they want is their mummy.

I can’t believe what my husband called me. He called me lazy and annoying. Well you know what he can go to hell. He then disappeared. I know where he went, to his friends house. He always gets to hang out with friends while I have to be at home with the kids. When do I get a break?

I get so tired so quickly these days and I have no idea why. I really don’t want to go to the doctor. i basically live there all ready with the kids. So what am I suppose to do? I’ll have to figure it out. Sooner, rather than later.

I want to go camping with my family and leave all technology and comforts of home and rough it. I did it as a kid with my mom, dad, sister and my auntie. Those times I went on holiday with my auntie were the happiest times of my childhood.

Better go get some rest before someone wakes up.

Got my new front door. I love it.


30 days of motherhood: April 25th, 2013

Day two of my two year old being sick. Well at least he stopped vomiting. Now it’s just the diarrhoea and a fever. All he did today was lay on the couch and sleep. He slept half of the day. Poor thing, he’s so exhausted.

Since the husband has some time off, he’s been helping my nine year old with his studies. My loves the attention from his father.

We are getting a new front door tomorrow. It’s about time to. The other one let’s in a lot of air. So in the winter the house stays cold.

Need some rest. By that I mean a good night’s sleep. Because this lack of sleep I’m on is ridiculous. No mother should be tired all the time.

My husband thinks keeping the house clean is easy. When you have four kids who don’t like cleaning up after themselves. It’s impossible. You can clean up a room and they are right behind you making another mess. So I take one step forward and two steps back or as the saying goes.

My grocery bill has doubled lately. Boys eat a lot. That’s all they do from the time they get up to the time they go to bed. When I pick them up from school it’s never a hello mum, how are you. It’s i’m hungry. Kids are so funny.

30 days of motherhood: April 24th, 2013

Couldn’t post and in this post it will explain why.

Woke up this morning to a extremely sick two year old. He was vomiting and has diarrhoea. The poor thing couldn’t hold anything down. He just laid on the couch dozing off while watching cartoons. He was throwing up and i had a big pile of laundry.

Husband keeps being rude to me and complaining about minor things. He wonders why my wood shifts like crazy. When he’s around on a constant basis my body goes on alert. It’s like I have to walk on egg shells.

My nine year old is grounded for a couple of days. he’s been rude and mouthy. This is becoming a vicious cycle with him.

My eight year old is being two times as bad as my nine year old. So I’m getting it from all corners. How much more can I can I take. I have no idea. I wouldn’t be surprised if I landed up having a nervous breakdown with everything I have to deal with.

Been on a lack of sleep again. My sleeping pattern is all messed up. I fall asleep for two hours and wake up then I’m awake for about four hours, fall asleep until I have to get up to get the kids ready for school.

30 days of motherhood: April 23rd, 2013

Made the husband take the kids to school and pick them up since he’s home for a week and a half. I’m taking advantage of him so I can get a bit of rest.

My throat isn’t as sore as it has been. The antibiotics are working, thank god. As long I don’t yell at the kids ( which will never happen) it shouldn’t bug me too much.

Stayed at home trying to catch up on housework which seems to end. Tomorrow I have to run a couple of places in the morning and then drop my two year old off at playgroup, then come home and try to catch up on the laundry.

I still have the exhaustion from the bacteria infection but it’s not intense as it has been.

I could use a massage right now and relieve all the tension that is sitting in all my muscles.

My two year old is starting to talk in three to four word sentences. Ever since he started going to playgroup, his talking has improved rapidly. A few months ago he could only say a word or two. it’s shocking how fast they grow. Some days i wish they could stay little. they are so cute and adorable.

30 days of motherhood: April 22nd, 2013

Had a appointment with the doctor and I have a bacteria infection in my throat. This is why I feel the way I do.

Babysat my neighbors child for a few hours while her mom went to a parenting class.

Took my eight year old to the doctor for his behaviour and the doctor said it might be a long process before we will get to the bottom of it.

Took the kids to the park for a little while and all four had too much fun. They didn’t want to leave.

My nine year old got really mad at me because I made him do the dishes and when I checked them to make sure they were clean ( they were really greasy) I started throwing them back into the sink and he threw a fit. Yelling and calling me names so I sent him to bed. He wasn’t happy about it.

I made my husband cook and give both little ones a bath ( but of course i had to do the cleaning up) then he disappeared the whole night. One of these days he will find his things packed outside the door and the locks changed because i’m getting fed up with what he’s pulling.

Been a busy day for me.


30 days of motherhood: April 21st, 2013

Still feeling terrible. I think I need to go to the doctor. The sore throat I’ve have is so intense no pain killer is giving me relief. i have absolutely no energy and taking care of the house and the kids is so hard and i get exhausted fast. The kids won’t help without a fight which to tell you the truth i’m not up for it right now.

The two older kids give me a hard time about everything and anything and it’s a struggle for me. then I have the two younger ones who want my attention all the time. So I have to divide my time between them. It’s a challenge.

This exhaustion I’m feeling is horrible. I’m on autopilot and i have to push myself to my limits. My husband don’t care how I’m feeling.

i went to buy some clothes today. While my neighbor watched my two older kids for me because  they didn’t want to come with me. I thought if I get out of the house I might feel better. Not a chance. I took the little ones with me and they both slept the whole time I was out. I managed to buy two leggings, a dress, a sweater, and a pair of shoes and I’m happy with what I bought and I didn’t have to pay a lot for everything. I wish I could’ve enjoyed myself better because of the way I feel.

30 days of motherhood: April 20th, 2013

Still feeling lousy and so tired. Barely had any energy to do the housework. So I didn’t do much and I know that the husband will come home and and start to complain about the house and I could careless. When I start to feel better things will get done.

When my husband came home to drop off some groceries. He started in on me about things and said some really mean things. I really want to know what’s up with him.

The two older kids were grounded from going outside because they were throwing rocks outside beforehand.

Today was a lazy day except  a few chores and the kids. It’s been a struggle to do anything. Whatever I have is wiping me out.

My two younger children were playing a game together. One would chase the other around  the couch. The baby thought it was funny and laughing his head off.

Feel like going to bed even though it’s only eight-thirty at night. I never feel like going to bed early. What I have is kicking my butt.

Hope tomorrow is better.